All my life it seems I have tried not being the real me. Or maybe every time I showed who I really was, nobody seemed to like it. Regardless, I haven't been "ME" in my entire 39 years- 473 months- 2, 058 weeks- 14, 406 days- 345, 766 hours- 20, 745, 996 minutes- 1, 244,759,786 seconds life. Seeing that 40 is right around the corner, 204 days, I pledge to be the real me. I plan to enjoy this birthday like no other. The last time I really enjoyed a birthday was when i turned 12. Supposedly, your 13th, 16th, 18th, 21st birthdays are special but not for me. Don't get me wrong I'm not complaining, I don't really like birthdays or holidays much. BUT, my life has changed alot recently and I want to celebrate it with a fabulous 40th birthday. AND, the only way to do that is to unchain the real me.
"ME"
I can be VERY stubborn when I don't want to do something but am also the most determined person you will probably ever meet when I do want to do something. I am not a talker but a doer. I can't stand liars, therefore I do not lie. There are no "curse" words. I mean really people they are all just words. If you're offended by them, don't bother being my friend. I LOVE music(all genres) , art, ballet, animals, unique fashion, baseball, football, hanging with cool friends, science, history, coffee, alcohol, mexican food, italian food, not much of a sweets person, love love love the beach, thunderstorms and I love to laugh! I don't have a large amount of friends but the ones I do have are friends for life. I own my own business, ok so I don't actually make much money, the phrase starving artist is an accurate depiction. But, I am doing what I LOVE to do and that's all I care about. The word "NO" is not in my vocabulary. I am not a what if person or a could've, would've, should've type. I like change, actually I have to have it! I get bored very easily. I love luxurious things and flowers, particularly white ones. sure there are many things I left off, my memory is terrible!! I can't tell you what I ate for lunch yesterday or if I had been driving that damn vehicle when I got the DWI. Not sure when it went to shit. Could have been after I had my 3rd child or maybe it's always been this way.
From here on out, I am going to just be "me"! If you don't like "me" then fuck off!!
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